Monday I had my first therapy session in about 2 years. I was nervous, scared, and really tired. I had just come off 3 night shifts and had slept maybe an hour before I left to go. When I tell you I wasn’t emotional going in there I’m not kidding, I was just tired. All she said to me was can you just tell me about yourself. All I got out was “I have a younger sister..” and I started crying like alligator tears. I felt ridiculous. Needless to say I spent the whole time in there crying, but it felt good. I went home and slept 7 hours 😂
I am so excited to go back next week and keep telling her about myself. I know this is what I needed and I’m glad I took that step. Next up is getting a psychiatrist. Funny story, my PCP gave me a referral to a Doctor I work with. 😂 sorry won’t be going to see them.
I’m just ready for more normalcy. I want to see Terry more. Spend more time with my family. Heck I haven’t actually spent more than a couple hours with Terry in about 9 days. Between working night shifts and being at my parents for almost a week we just haven’t seen each other. And I miss that. It’s literally a I’ll see you when I see you kind of thing.
Not much of an update for you this time but I’m hoping as the weeks go on I’ll have more.
It’s annoying, the longer you work in mental health, the longer the list grows of treatment providers you can’t/won’t see because you work with them.
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